a very great sunday today. went to wenx's house to visit his mum.
met up with dawn, sheron and ml at bugis. went to eat 'lei cha', it brought me back to old days, love it! i've learned so much from dawn, it's been really long since i met her, the last time was almost 2 years ago, when i asked her for advice on what course to choose, she shared lots of experience with me. she really made an impact on me. ml and i then headed down to plaza sing. faceshop sales were cheap! (:
then i met fatcat for dinner after his work, did real funny things together and laughed like nobody business. hahaha. stupid fat cat.
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actually i don't like anyone to say that i only spend time on him that's why i'm always busy. firstly, we hardly go out together because both of us need to work and normally meet outside our workplace. secondly, friend always asked me out at the wrong time, it's either i have to work, study or sleep. people just don't see the whole picture ):
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sometimes you see your closest friends having so many friends around them, you feel inferior and lonely, thinking that you mean nothing to them, then u wish to make new friends.
for a moment, i felt like this, i wish i have many many friends to accompany when i'm alone. i guess, maybe, some feel exactly like me too. but at the end of the day, you eventually distingush that who are those friends u feel most comfortable with. that's your closest friends, and i found mine. they are the one i think of when i need them, but i'm no longer sure am i the one they think of.

sorry, it's a long wordy post. i was naive to think that i should do my best to help him. but now i realised there's no point doing anything well, when you get nothing but more trouble, no sense of achievement at all. hey, i'm only a part-timer, why should i put this job as my priority, above my studies and my friends. why should i give up the bond to work in somewhere that is under appreciated? its not worth my time at all. SIS 21st BIRTHDAY (:
yesterday was great ! met glad and wanxian for dinner behind phs, we managed to sneak into phs and saw mr julian lau. i truly miss the school, the teachers and principal.











love her just like last time (: seriously, felt really lucky that i took nursing instead of psychology studies which i wanted so much last time, cos psychology really sucks. i was revising for my psychology exam and realised i understand nothing about it. regretted for not paying attention in lecture. but still i love what i'm studying now, especially bioscience(: and i really want to do well just to make him proud. his is my only motivation, always and forver...
i look through my previous post since 2006. it's been a really tough journey. one moment feeling on top of the world, next moment feeling the whole world has crumble down. but that's life and everyone goes through. sometimes, i miss him so much, that i imagined his still lying there with me holding his hand tightly. i considered myself quite successful now, and i wouldn't be what i am now without dad. wenxiang surprised me with his licence and his friend's ugly old car yesterday! hahahah! thanks for cheering me up J and wx2. how do you feel, when you realised nobody understand you, not even you yourself? terribly alone...


我就站在这里
从来不曾离去
不管以后什么困难
若想到我 你会知道
我就站在这里
从来不曾放弃
就算我知道你已变了
变得不在意
我还在这里 reviewing the whole issue, lots of 'why?' came into my mind. why do people always have this 'i was right and you were wrong about everything' attitude. and seriously, what's the point of adding oil to the fire,then feeling so pleased seeing the person you hate living in agony? i'm really not saying anyone specifically, but that's just human. i don't understand why and i'm just so curious of the behaviour human have. yea, it's not my business but it affects my thoughts. they say 'it's easier to change yourself than change the world', erm, why not think of what yourself have done wrong? why not see things in another way? why not stop pretending? don't you think life would be so much easier like this.
again, i need to emphasis, i'm not saying anyone specifically.dont get offended!!!!!!!! (:
i consider myself very lucky to have people i can call friends.i love you, happy friendship day. although there were some tears shed, i laughed a lot more in school today because of the two funny girls, raudah and weizheng (:







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