brought grandma for breakfast early in the morning. she would stop every 5 mins to say hi to different friends. and i made friends with the old folks too (: everyone is so kind and friendly and i like this neighbourhood very much..
then i went to 2wen's house to pai nian. the two crazy boy were really funny trying to cheat their parents i'm their girlfriend they share, what the?! and because of that, big angbao i've received :D wahaha

dinner together.

it's sad to realise that this clique seems to get smaller and smaller.
you see? everything's changing.
i can't see the effort anymore. my gastric is so painful right now.
for the first time i understand, how does it feels like,
when you're too moody that you have no appetite to eat at all, not even chocolates.
i ate drowsy medicine to make myself sleep longer hour.
i met buddy to chat.
i went running alone this two days, making myself breathless with my block nose.
i can't find my own soul.
i may be distant to others,
my heart feels ever, ever more distant to my own soul.
why is this so? i don't know too.
i'm just so upset for everything that has happened,
that can no longer be the same anymore
that, the person i love was no longer him.
)': i'm so not feeling well now. everything is stuck all over my body. block nose, sore throat, the gases that i drank that was stuck in my chest, and indigest junk food that i ate.. tossed and turn around on my bed, i can't sleep. the feeling sucks.
beer plus swing plus companion, never failed to make me feel better.i couldn't really turn to anyone because i myself, couldn't bring myself to accept the changes )':
really want to thank my buddy jian ming for being there when i need him. a good listener he is(: "some things are beyond our reach, nothing we could do but just have to let go" yeah, how true. appreciate this bud of mine. bottling up my troubles, a tough thing to do, but great to have friends around who cares. thanks van for coming, we promised each other to quit our bad habit. truly wish she'll really do it, for me. hehe.

nothing better to do.

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR .
it's a really quiet cny )':
why am i crying deep inside?
why is my heart hurting so much?
woke up early this morning, my two sister brought food to the temple for my dad. so i stayed at home to help grandma prepare the vegetarian food to offer granddad and dad. grandma told me about what she have been through in the past, i almost cried when i saw her eyes turning red. felt really thankful for a kind family i am having now. although she has been through alot of tough times, she's blessed with a very nice family now, and with me, a nice granddaughter to love and take care of her. hehehe. (: wed
gastric is too painful to fall asleep )':
seriously busy like hell today. i'm working like an octopus.
didn't have time to eat at all, not even grabbing a bread, then rushed to clinic.
i'm really depress because i really miss a person so deeply )':
dad, you're my only energy left

J, thanks for the subway cookies, if not i would have really fainted.BFForever crazy boy !

sometimes i asked myself : so whose there when i needed someone most ? sunday
finally, a day off yesterday. i woke up so early to tidy up my house for Chinese New Year. then went for a soul search.. ran 10 rounds in the stadium, with my sis. but i consider it running alone cos she was running at the speed that i walked. climbed up and down the stairs, then skipped 1000! suddenly, i have the motivation to grow taller !! :D haha.

monday.
people hate monday but i love it, cos it's a day off as well. woke up early wanted to run. but my legs are numb like jellies now.
JB with my JoyBuddy !


our favourite wantonmee and kopi ! love it to the max.
we had the biggest yummiest bowl which cost only 5RM.


haha. ah moey ugly pic.. so funny.


(:

we went back in the evening. i went for a 30min run ! my stamina have improved but i think my legs are working way too hard. i may not be able to walk soon.

This is a crazy world
These can be lonely times
It's hard to know who's on your side most of the time

Who can you really trust
Who do you really know
Is there anybody out there
Who can make you feel less alone
Some times you just can't make it on your own

If you need a place where you can run
If you need a shoulder to cry on
I'll always be your friend
When you need some shelter from the rain
When you need a healer for your pain
I will be there time and time again
When you need someone to love you
Here I am.

If you have broken dreams
Just lay them all on me
I'll be the one who understands
So take my hand

If you reach emptiness
You know I'll do my best
To fill you up with all the love
That I can show someone
I promise you you'll never walk alone

Everybody needs somebody who keep a heart and soul in two
Well if you need a place where you can run
If you need a shoulder to cry on
I'll always be your friend
When you need some shelter from the rain
When you need a healer for your pain
I will be there time and time again
When you need someone to love you
Here I am, Here I am

i love this song. feelings are all there. sometimes i would rather act stupid then finding out the truth,
making myself real disappointed. i have brains to analyse, why does -- make me feel like i'm a stupid friend? hais. appreciate people for being truthful, i've learned that's the best way to make people love you.
so be it. not important anymore.

i think it's worthwhile to spend some money on chocolate ice cream and plenty of chocolates, maybe only chocolate big feast will cheer me up now. so many things clouding my mind.
i'll never have the ability to nurse the wound in your heart.
so be it. doesn't matter anymore
)':

ben and yuan. they really look alike in this picture.
it's funny that today was the first time ben saw me looking so normal coz last two years on christmas i was already drunk before he came.

us and his friend.

we had new name for each other,
BAYUAN AND BATENG

the kind of friend that only heaven could have sent (:


breaking another heart.
tell me. is there anything that I can do?
爱让我们流多少眼淚

steamboat at amk! surprisingly, i didn't eat so much today, controlled my diet successfully.


went to the highest floor at gladys's old building. all of us love the place there. it was really beautiful. all bright lights represents stars and we made wishes there. viven made 20 wishes.

went to amk park to meet WX and ML, they brought the cake out (: it wasn't actually a surprise for her until . . .

joren smashed our mango cake on her !!! we got a shock too. the whole mango was on her eyes. the cake was wasted but the poor birthday girl was really funny. couldn't stop laughing.

LOOK ! look at minli the greedy face! wana know what they are doing? they are eating some parts of the cake that was on the sand. so pathetic cos we wanted to eat the cake so much. hahah.

a handmade present for viven.


having fun (:

like this pictures with gladys

all girls (:

as usual. joren will never stop bullying her

had fun today, although work wasn't that good today, but having them around really cheered me up. it's nice knowing viven, even though its only few months. i guess we've been through quite alot together. i wish that her 20 wishes will come true (:

this cute boy alvin i once bullied in sec one !

junliang alvin me and wanxian (:

SHIT jie! hahaha. his really a funny guy, making me laughed till my cheek cramp.

daryl, philbert and minli, i mean bui kia, our new nickname for minli.

chris, daryl and philbert

rodrick joined too. i couldn't regconise him at all coz his getting more MAN.

all of us (:

had dinner with my family and banana. mum have to work ):

dropped by van's place. haha.. many people were there, many food too.. sorry that my stomach was so bloated that i didnt eat the food you guys prepared! and sorry that i didnt stay long ! happy to see you guys. J especially (: hehe

the beauty was angry and drunk.
still love you as much beauty.

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