first week of attachment was great. i'm one step closer to my dream again. i wrote down my objective that i want to achieve every day, i want to be strong, i want to overcome it. but never did i achieve any of them.
seeing patient lying on the bed. unmovable. limbs swollen. waiting to eat their fav food. hoping to have a good sleep without any disturbs. claiming that they are alright. crying for doctor to discharge them. everything just remind me of dad. when i thought of him, eyes always became watery.
i hate myself for being emotional. and being selfish to think that, it would be so good if last time i could provide dad with very basic care patiently, just like what i did in the ward now.
i'm getting use to everything, i'm very happy for what i'm doing now, but i just can't overcome the grief.
i cherish my family so much now, and i'm getting more and more afraid to see mum and grandma get old and weak.

can the one i love never leave me?
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