thanks for lending me your ears to pour out my grievances
J, you are the best !

49 days just passed in a blink.
''the great man is he, who does not lose his child's heart"
quoted this in a book.
a great man Dad is. last evening was SP leo Installation & Induction ceremony. it was pretty successful !
i'm the camera man but most of the pictures i took was blurr.
let the pictures speak (=

timothy's back taken by Eevon




roar roar roar




ZK and thad. leo club vice president.


leo president Neil.






four handsomes.


hanhong banana


lao gao timothy :D






happy leo people (:

out of all the pictures i took for them, i like this three most.



LOL ! poor ZK.

i felt really grateful that i could still join them for the pledge taking and everything although i'm no longer in sp. they still treat me as a leo member. as a friend.
thanks my friends (= having a very terrible sore throat today. the pain is unbearable ! like someone strangled me so tight. because of my red swallon throat, i haven't been eating much. gastric flu now, argh! my nightmare ): never felt so weak before. every part of my body.
)':

it's been really tough.
or am i the one making everthing tougher for myself.
i go to bed every night asking myself one question.
"WHY?"
i never get the answer.
yet i never stop asking myself.
i am having problems overcoming the grief.

sock is a very strong girl. yea right,
i'm just a painter who draw a smile on my face.

today me and irene so zi lian. she baked a very very ugly cake. we took lots of pictures with it.i gave irene a new name. SHE IS KUDU HEAD. her hair got kudu. Eeeeee.
i so happy, i found a new hobby :D i love jogging 10 rounds in the stadium alone. it's the only way that can make myself confident (:
my best tips for slimming down :
say NO to chocolates.
be a vegeterian !
run 10 rounds
:D 你小心翼翼 牵我手
其实是担忧 藏不住我
自尊也投降 活在她之下
我 好傻

你字字句句说 你不爱她
那又是什么 让你害怕
我疑惑但是原谅 因为你留下
我 好傻

不是我不说就不在意空等候
原来 你没想像中那么爱我
我不懂该拿什么安慰我的难受
你的存在 让我更寂寞

你寸步不离 像天使的她
挥霍我的爱 从不放心上
我有一丝无奈 也有一些明白
该 放开

不是我不说就不在意空等候
原来 你没想像中那么爱我
我不能再从你的怀抱感觉到什么
不爱我别再说 假装爱那是撒盐在伤口

谁说我不在意空等候
原来 你从来都没深刻爱我
我才懂不是我不心痛
其实是心没了感受

你没想像中爱我

nice song sang by 石欣卉

what's the point of longing him to love you and have you back.
when he already held someone else hand.
long long time ago.
)': HAPPY SEXY 18th BIRTHDAY SMELLY ALEX !
sorry that i didnt make your 18th birthday exciting.
but hope you really enjoyed your day.
you're a good guy.
(:

smelly socks. hehe ! sorry, my words offended you guys last night.
glad that everything is at peace now.
thanks for helping her (:

i just reached home. it's late, broke my own rules.
met johnson and ML !
went pasta mania to find WX, was really happy to see her.
watched the dark knight. nice movie ! but spiderman is more handsome :D



nice meeting johnson again ! he is a nurse. COOL !
hope that we will be in the same field next time :D today was great, had a meaningful day :D

went CCK for Project C.A.N organised by NUS community service club. we went door to door to collect food stuff for the needy. some people were really generous to prepare the foodstuff for us to collect and some spent their time digging all they could find to donate. although some food were expired, still appreciate their effort.

came across a big fat cat like Garfield at a doorway ! the cat was really cute, i gave the cat a stroke and he was like living a life of bliss. and also a house with noisy dogs barking aggressively at us ! as if his throat was going to burst soon. irritating dogs, but cute.

me, alex, yiting, eevon and someone were in a group, they are all good, so the collections were done easily. not tiring at all, but i realised my throat was tired cos i've been talking too much to yiting. hahaha. i found out that we had many common interest (: so glad to know more about her.

after the event, me SL and ZK went city hall. regrets that i only had cold drink for dinner, because i'm not breathing well now ): anyway, we went for a stroll along the river and sat down at my fav spot.
saw a couple taking their wedding photos, at that moment, i could imagine weijie and his girlfriend in their wedding ceremony, beautifully dressed, smiling at each other blissfully, and our relatives, all seem deliriously happy. i wish to attend the wedding, although we couldn't, i didn't feel left out at all !
but i'm afraid dad could feel it )':

a feeling of ease and peace after the noise dies down when it started to drizzle. was romantic, i like this feeling, especially when i'm with the friends i like. hard to find friends who like community service, that's why i like them.
had hard time finding people to accompany me to the fund raising for sichuan earthquake ):

relatives from malaysia came to visit us yesterday and they got durians for us. golden yellow ! trrrriiiiple fats ! bittersweet ! oh my goodness, tasted the nicest durian i ever had. i wish i could share it with minli but she cursed me. i was being too greedy that i ate a little too much. i imagined durian as shit. eewk !


can't wait for tomorrow !

i miss you too GLADYS (: hehe 双喜临门 ！

wedding bells ringing !
tomorrow is my dearest cuzzy WEIJIE 's joyous occasion (: he is getting marry tomorrow. i'm really happy for him. when we were very young, some of my cousins pronounced me and weijie husand and wife. WOW, how time flies ! he grew up to be a successful man and now his getting marry. we cannot attend his wedding , but i can imagine how happy everyone is :D

我要当表姨了 ！
:D my cuzzy huiqing had one month pregnancy !

such happy occasion, but dad is no longer here
)': i wish he will be here was discussing with mum about Venerable ming yi's incident while she cycled me to mrt.. regarding this issue, i am utterly disappointed !
i told mum that God had completely taken away our greatest hope. he is a monk, A BUDDHIST ! i thought Buddhist are all self-less?
it really disgusts me when some wealthy people can actually act deceitfully to get what they want, those people have no heart at all to consider that the poor ones have lack so many of the things they consider necessities. this kind of behaviour has brought disgrace on the whole world. i repeat again and again, i hate to be in a rich world full of deception ):<

but today, mum had completely change my mindset. she told me : see deep. see deep that you realise that the world is ugly, not because of those people. see till you realise that there is ugliness in your mind, and it only exists in your mind. she asked me, do you know the truth before you judge him? i began to reflect upon myself. ya right, my mindset is so damn wrong. mum strongly believe that he didn't do on purpose, now i believe he didn't do it too ! because i always believe that all Buddhist are self-less. she's right, a beautiful heart is one that sees beauty all around, it even sees the hidden beauty in what the world sees as ugliness. the world is still pretty. although there were some little deceits, donor still believe the poor depend entirely on them, good people still exist and i will learn to appreciate (: i should have an open heart, 'happiness' in mandarin is kai xin, which means 'open-heartedness'.
i have learned one important lesson today.
we should need only our needs, not want more wants.
BE AT PEACE !


i think MUM is the most beautiful person, beauty makes sense only when it is felt in the heart, there is nothing more beautiful than a kind heart like hers.


johnson's birthday is on this saturday!!! :D spent some time editing our picutures cos i'm gonna do something pretty for his 18th birthday ! i still remember we were super duper close friend in sec 4 & 5. we sat together in lesson, had our recess together in canteen library or in class , studied after school together, and i was so jealous that the food he cooked for f&n practical is always so much better than me. mine is like kana sai . his a guy ok ):< but he always encouraged me that i could do better. i miss those sweetest moment we spent together. his just like a super good sister to me. hahaha ! its like damn long since we met and i can't wait to see him on sunday ! ! !
during this 7 months, sock'd miss moo like crazy !
i hope we can still crap like last time :D Habitat for Humanity needs volunteers to fund-raise for rebuilding of homes for the victims of the Sichuan Earthquake.
Dates : 27 July and 31 Aug 2008
Time : 11:30am - 5:30pm
Meeting Place and collection : Outside Orchard Paragon @ 11am
There will also be a complusory briefing on 25 July (Fri), 5pm
@ Habitat for Humanity
(directly opp. Aljunied MRT)
To date, 5 million people affected by the earthquake are still homeless.
please help (: you can choose the date that you're available
but briefing on 25 july is complusory.

ANYONE IS INTERESTED, PLEASE SMS TO SOCK ! ! !

i'm sick for many days already )': whole body were too numb to move, so i didn't go for work today. stayed at home to sleep throughout the whole morning and noon. met dumbass paul for shopping. brought some expensive stuff and i'm totally broke, have to dig my coins to clear my debt. but i'm really satisfied and i'm feeling more energetic after shopping spree !

i'm very used to stick on my bed and at home after he left us. regret for not spending more time with dad. if only i knew things would turn out this way, i would go home straight after school or work, rather than hanging out with friends till midnight. i truly wish i could turn back time.
if i could, pigs can fly.
it was a sense of regret that i promised to spend more time with my family now.
i told myself i must be a Cinderella ! reach home before 12 am !

i miss him so deeply )':

super model ZK

the kids me and yieny took charge were really obedient (:
no problem looking after them at all. yingjie, the cute girl from my group.

everyone had fun (:

miss my banana group (:
SPleo club rocks my socks. YIE NY too !

i am really disappointed in a best friend )': it's foolish for me to trust someone.. i guess we should not differentiate between best friend and friend. well, i should say thanks to this best friend i had, it is a valuable learning experience. i cherished those few years being your friend. i can forgive, but i'll no longer be there if you ever need me.
great. life is great meeting people like you.
humans aren't perfect, friendship too. i could understand this clearly. i'm so sick today ): having cough, sorethroat, headache, fever, gastric. went running for at least one hours last few days, i don't know why i'm getting weaker and weaker )'; stayed home to sleep the whole day. felt like a useless dead person.. i'm still not emotionally prepared for work.
its so hard to get over
)':
isn't this pretty ? !

i mean the card beside the strawberry shortcake (:
my sis learned to bake this cake in school today.
so i help her to do the label .
many people said its pretty. kekeke xox0
i'm so proud today.

the cake was really nice too. i will learn someday(:


i'm on diet (: I OFFICIALLY WITHDRAW FROM MY COURSE TODAY
x(

after signing the withdrawal form, i went to meet my classmates for lunch. then went cine to watch Get Smart with huiyi, zhijuan, yilun, liuyan, jianzhong, dhil and kanghao (: we took neoprints (:






hehehe.

it's time to move on with my new life.
(: i must be happy again.

i'm going to see doctor tmr ! lonely youth day

after meeting kat, SL and alex for lunch in school
i went vivo city for shopping while waiting to see yiyuan perform(:





she's damn pretty.


my handsome bestie (:
his voice was the best today ! i'm serious. i will always support him
just like he had never stop believing in me that i will be a good nurse someday.
(: appreciate my friends .


pretty ? of cos, done by sock. for those people i will miss. hehe.
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