watched THE MIST with joren ven and george yesterday. the show was really gruesome and ending was damn stupid. i love bloody movie. but sleepless nights because of all the bad dreams i had past few day and the movie. after movie then shopping with paul. brought dress for new year (: hehhehheh i really want to be a girl although i know its so not sockteng

sentosa then shopping today (: wanted to buy dress but end up buying jeans again. i still love to be myself.


some NGs



train home (:


i love you JM ! be happy, like me.

trust me, loving someone who can't love you the same way back is way lonelier than being alone.
single is good. forget about loving someone.
): met ML WX clar and george that night.



CHEER UP VAN ! my heart bleeds to see you cry ): went PHS with yuan then met JM to visit sharon and her 11days baby. glad that its a baby boy not girl. if you know me, i hate baby girl, if i have a girl i may pinch her dead. anyway, he is damn adorable ! his tiny arms and feet make me feel so big and old. sharon is such a brave mother.






he says : im a superman and i want to punch my godmother.hahaha. slept late last night to think of what courses should i take. finally just submitted JAE application.
i wanted nursing as my first choice but dad was not happy with it. hais
have been trying to find a balance between my personal goals and family responsibilities. i have so many dreams. typical pisces. so cancelled my dream as a nurse ):
this are the 12 choices
1st biomedical science in sp
2nd environmental management and water tech in sp
3rd psychology and community service in np
4th molecular biotech in nyp
5th nursing in nyp
6th biomedical science np
7th environmental and water tech np
8th biotech sp
9th early childhood np
10th applied food science and nutrition tp
11th food science nyp
12th civil and environment engineering np.
so now wait for the result of application. let god choose my path.

don't stress over people in your past
theres a reason why they didn't make it to your future met dawn khoo to telok kurau (: she adwarded me expensive lunch. she really inspired me and helped me alot in choosing the courses. she is 18yrs older than me, so after sharing with me much of her experiences, i decided to choose nursing but dad doesnt allow. i dont know what he want from me . hais .

then met kel and he treat me dinner. walked from esplanade to clakequay (:

25th jan.
its already 3am and im still here cos i seriously couldnt sleep =D




big feast today with sisters and bananna didn't cheer me up. but looking forward to tomorrow's date did. hahahahahahaa (: pray hard everything goes well.

got to submit the application for courses tomorrow. have to be kiasu abit. but i'm still lost. i want to be a nurse, a social worker, a teacher, a nutritionist, a doctor, a pyscologist . i want to work in poor countries. i want to open an old folks home.
so which diploma should i take. pisces and taurus,
could be extremely happy together
you are what i always wanted
what more can i ask from you

but life is full of lies. and those lies, may change your life from good to worst.
liar. i will never trust anyone.

after much advice from Chooster Paul and J last night, decided to go poly at last. got 11 points for R4. english could pass and got a b3 was by luck only. so i dont think i cant make it in jc. Chooster called and gave me really good questions to ask myself. anyway, felt really disappointed that he wasnt there to give us our results ): anyway, THANKS CHOOSTER for everything he did for the class for three years, his motivation are so precious to me, his a great teacher.
so now, biomedical science or environment management and water technology or psycology and community service or molecular biotech. i hope i could take all. courses i want are from sp but i dont want to go sp cos i dont want the horrible past to haunt me again... ya right, its the past .

anyway , im so looking forward to new life in new school. so do venessa, i know hahahahaha. because of those nerdy yet good looking guys or hunks. hahahahahha. but all are liars. i guess friends will drift apart as they go into poly and make new friends. human are like that. they have so many things in life that they will never learn to cherish, they end up losing everything. i will learn from his lesson. i hope we won't drift apart friends.
=D didnt sleep well last night, felt like theres butterflies in my stomach so i read horoscope book about TAURUS in the middle of the night hahahahah. thought of this person to calm myself down (:
so results out ! hard work paid off. i still feel like im dreaming now. got wayy beyond my expectation and im really happy
:(
dad didnt look happy.. some friends are upset.
and im really lost.
no one can help me.
choices cannot make by ' mi ni ma ni mi ni mo catch the spider on the wall '
im all alone now.
jc or poly?
if i choose the wrong path, my future will be gone.
i thought i always knew what i want in the future, i just want to make a difference in other people's life but where do i begin? too many things i want and hope to learn. i just cant get my priorities right.
im really lost ):
and after results, some go jc poly ite or anywhere. everyone go seperate ways, friends drifted apart.
just like i said, i am my own listening ears. i will always be ):

i hope i have the courage to drown myself in the swimming pool
): HALO !
im using my new lousy laptop to blog in mcdonal now (: hahaha. this laptop only cost me 340 bucks. thanks to the school. i spent all my edusave award money to buy new camera at 450 few days ago and im totally broke like mad now. dont wish to go anywhere, not even to work because im using adult fare now. i just hope that i can lock myself in the room. seriously no money to take train to work or anywhere. now im paying almost everything myself. i dont wish to grow up :'(

yesterday went tampines ikea in the morning with ML. we had good lunch in ikea restuarant(: then wildwildwet with joren ven and maggie. then headed to suntec city to watch the fountain. then to kovan for supper.




my friend minli here likes to make shit face. so i will post all out to give her a lesson. HAHAHA



today, maggie's last day in singapore ): went school early in the morning. brought maggie to see principal. mrs tan invited us to the conference room and served us like we were vip hahahah. she's really nice. regretted cursing her for asking money from us when i was in sec one, cos whatever she does is really for the students good. she is really a good role model for every one. never regretted choosing phs if not i wont be who i am today. . . anyway we celebrated maggie's birthday in advance in conference room (:







and we bid goodbye in the school. i really miss life in phs ): miss the potato and laksa on tuesday and the economic rice uncle who likes to wear hot red pant. but the canteen changed like total stranger. and i miss devotions every morning altho i hated it last time. i miss all teachers and lessons with them ): i wish i could turn back time.
then, i will never choose to be with you brought MAGGIE our hongkong friend to tour around singapore.
went lots of places yesterday and stay over at chenning's home.
today went sentosa and some other places. had great day but travelled the whole day, damn tired.
let the pictures speaks...






she's maggie !











and tomorrow we are going wildwildwet and some other places again. totally broke , but still trying to enjoy my life now and make myelf happy.
cos it's not healthy to hate someone >:( 10jan. im sick. but still managed to go work. seriously, at there, time never seem to tick at all..after work rushed back home to meet jiemin and weijie. went yishun to watch movie at night. one miss call, its a good show, probably because i watched with them and before movie i got to savour my fav chocolate hersey pie! hahaha. had fun walking back home. sang our primary school song loudly till out of tune.. and the sweetest two friends sent me home. i really miss those days in primary school. although there were lots of quarrels last time but those days in primary five and six were the best time in my life..
jm, the girl who is offically known as the thickest skin woman said that i'll be alright without him. but without her i will die. never named her wrongly, cos her skin is really thick like elephant. HAHAHA. but i still love her millions lar.and the nanny poopoo weijie. so naggy. but also i still love him oso (:

today. in fact, 11th on every month is still a special anniversary to me.
im so sick, love sick. im tired. off to bed. JB with minli yesterday (:
ate nice and cheap food there in vivo restuarant and secret recipes. i love chocolate cakes from secret recipes and i will fly to heaven when i eat !! watched two movies at less than 10 sing dollars ! we watched national treasure. then went to kotaraya to buy cheap biscuit and rushed so quickly back to city square to watch alien vs predator, missed the first 10mins of the show. thought that show would be good, but yucks... after movie we went shopping. had great day with my buddy ! (:
today sucks. so few customers. i could sit there till spiderweb grows.

im getting use to my single life now . planned to go jb with hL and WJ yesterday but hL couldnt find her passport :(
so met WJ to orchard. we had our first subway meal together :D never thought that the sandwich there can be so tasty !! HAHAHA. after listening to some of his life story, i felt that we are so alike in many ways. we need HUGE dose of love from others. erm. maybe, thats why i treat him just like my sister (:
we headed down to city hall to meet JM in evening.
FINALLY BROUGHT MY PISCES BOOK FOR 2008 !
JM brought her libra book too, and WJ brought a japanese book. we were too excited to read so we settled down marina square bk and had supper. then went home at night.
slept damn late because of the fascination of horoscope :D

I FOUND MYSELF BACK
im really happy. although i had the same bad dream about him last night.
but anyway, read the horoscope book about pisces and i found myself back, it boosted my confidence (: never felt confident in myself before..
HAAAHAHA.

Pisean, being water signs love swimming and getting involved in water sport.
Pisceans love working with children, or people with mental or physical disabilities . They want to do something that uplifts others and helps them find a sense of purpose in their own lives. The helping and healing professions such as social and welfare work, nursing and dietetics will bring out the best in them.
Some pisceans eat way too much and this is their way of coping with emotional problems or suppress their feelings.
Piscean have strong family ties and supporting them is a lifelong commitment to them. They need to have a close-knit family.
Piseans dont believe love is an impossible dream and they never give up the ideal of finding the perfect soul mate. they want to give themselves so completely to the one they love that they often become obilvious to the other aspects of life. When their true love comes into view, they'll see this as the turning point in their life. they'll give their all to satisfy them. Even if their partner is not as unconditional as them, they'll still be happy to give them their love wholdheartedly. they hope that they too will in time be able to give them greater satisfaction. They are innovative in the way they like to show their love. they often think up different ways of expressing their love. Piseans are deeply committed to long-term stable relationships, but they give their love so much love, that they feel suffocated by it.
Compatible star signs. Capricon ?


yes true. i love swimming so much ! and i want to be a social worker ! and i wish to open an old folks home when i have money. thats my dream ! but i hate working with children. and ive have been eating way too much this few days . and i love my family and im still believing there will be a perfect one for me .
and i love him so deeply.
and if pisces and capricon are compatible, we wont end.
so 98% true.

erm. anyway. its a book that increased my self awareness, and also lots of question markSSS in my mind. horoscope is so true. i hope i can be an astrologer.

i love myself as piscean stuffed myself with so much food and chocolates
my stomach would have burst if J was not with me just now
his a great companion, a best friend..

i broke all promises i made for myself
cried from the depths of my soul
never thought i would be in this state.
i love him too much

last cry tonight, I PROMISE. met up with cyn yesterday
esplanade with her and her bf korey
so glad to see her.
(: Happy new year
(:

PHILBERT was back from australia :D ytd, new year eve met philbert sheron sherry ML darren daryl litin . had our stomach filled in jack's place in msq. was really glad to see him after few years. he is still the same, except for his hair (: still miss those days in 2compassion.

then went wj's house to countdown. mahjong again. 2008 will be my lucky year cos i won easily in our first round. drank alot.
so upset to see my dear girl drunk like mad ):
we're on the same boat. so cheer up . and remember im your sunshine.
love breaks us down .


really enjoyed my new year with those people. all were tired.. hah. chat with HL on the bed. realised what a true friend she is. hahaha.
indeed, they are really true friends to me.

looking back on 2007, im really thankful for every lesson that teached me how to be a better person. just like the trip to leprosy village in china, those are great experiences that changed me into a different person.

she's the one who made a great impact on me. she doesnt have legs to walk, no family to take care of her. yet she stays strong and lives on happily.
things are hard for the peasants, yet, they are thankful and joyful for what little they do have. i came back with an entirely new perspective of life..
and i also found a goal in my life (:
and of cos. dad changed me too.

new year, new hope, new resolution.

i hope that love can drive out hate. so that there will not be any sufferings among countries.
and as usual, i hope that dad will be happy.
and finally, i made a wish for myself, i want to be strong to let go of what does not belong to me.
im tired of the act

my resolution for this year is to have confidence in myself (:

happy new year once again (:
smile, and it will be a good year.
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