Friday, August 08, 2008 | 8:00 PM | 0 comments
8 8 8 !cool ! i purposely set the time to 8 pm. more 8 more luck. hehehe! J came to look for me today. quite long time since you came all the way here. thanks for the effort buddy(: so many year, you never failed to know when i needed you most..
so J told me to make 8 wishes for myself, i could only think of one for my family, so i went home to think about it. hahaha. i decided to post my 8 wishes here.
read this james, see which one you can fulfill. hehe !
1. i wish i can be a good nurse who take care of all my patients well.
2. i wish i will strike 4D tomorrow. just a few millions, enough for my Mum to retire.
3. i wish to travel around the poor country alone to visit the poor peasant there, impossible i know.
4. i wish those friends that i cherish will not drift away from me.
5. i wish what the fortune teller said were not true.
6. i wish to be happy no matter what comes my way.
7. i wish i could forget that person, forget the past and everything.
8. i wish i will find my true love again, to be exact, someone who will never lie to me, someone who will never change his heart, someone who says forever and then mean it, someone who will never hurt me like he did.
all my wishes are impossible one lah, i don't think you can fulfill any of it. haha..never mind, i'll give you one chance. i wish someone will buy me two chocolate fondant the next time when he come and find me again. hehehe ! you should be able to do this J
xoxo
we will always be friends, best friend only
i don't know why, i was very emo today. i missed him so much that i walked all the way to the ward that he stayed last time. i just don't know what i was doing. i saw a patient sleeping on that bed, he was just like Dad, so kind and fatherly, just like him, so ill and weak. that moment some selfish thoughts came to my mind, i wished the guy lying on the bed was Dad so that i could still hold his hand, stroke his head and talk to him just like last time. i called this my selfish thoughts, cos he was the one suffering, trying hard to survive so that we could still see him. yesterday, i dug out all the digusting lot of dung-like stuff that choked my sink. he was the one who did all that dirty things in the past. i guess his demise really made me a stronger person.
i'm working at the ENT (ear nose throat department) now, i felt that he was the one who put me at that department cos most of the patients have the same problems as him, he wants me to see how hard his life was following up with ENT doctors, and bearing all the unbearable procedures. i know his always by my side.
today, a patient asked me what motivates me to be a nurse. let me share with you too(:
firstly, because of the most important person in my life, Dad. last time i hope i could take care of him and protect him from diseases, but i didn't make it. so i hope i can do it on my family and the rest of the patient instead. secondly, i like old people. heartless children abandon them for their own sake. i like to see elderly innocent smile, i like the way they eat and everything. thirdly, the poor old leprosy villagers that i met in chagen village. i was motivated to be a nurse so that i have a chance to go back and take care of them some day. today this patient gave me the motivation i needed. she was really afraid of a procedure, while wating for Dr Lee, i was there trying to give her asssurance. she said she likes me and if one day she needs a personal nurse to take care of her she will find me again. i was really motivated by her words. i believe i can make it through (:
sorry, today 's post was rather long and boring.
