ST day !

dropped tears of joy becos i really feel so blessed.
dear.
its not a special day but there is so much things in my heart that i want to tell you.
i could feel its true.
it has been more than two years.
i have never told you before i could really feel your love for me.
i grumbled so much. yet you will always give in to me.
you have changed for me. i could feel it.
im serious.
im sorry for giving up so easily.
and thanks a million billion zillion for everything.
you are special to me.
woke up at 10 something. very long never sleep for more than 10 hrs :D so i went running . then went irene workplace. very scary place. then met johnny audreyma huishan and darren at amk mcd to study.




life is so super great :DDDDD
i love school so much so much. 25may wed. after meeting terence for dinner after tuition, reached home at bout 10 and started doin fnn coursework. only two hours of sleep :(

26may which is ytd. went sch. went interview for the hongkong thing. hopefully we can have a chance to go. thats my wish now ! bio day. studied before going cc house.


went cheechuan house at evening for maths tuition. finally understand shear and stretch :D thanks so much to him. tired until reached home din even bother to bath and went to slp.
p.s : i sweat alot !

today. din have time to clean myself in the morning. rushed to school. after sch went amk study with minli. saw johnny and my sweetheart<3 so we went together.

digging my pencil which dropped in the pond.


johnny. a bad study mate but a good friend :D

the way he ate icecream very funny. i took video . can laugh till my belly ache.


they all went home left me and minli. she went to buy book and left me alone there for about one hr. i took a nap there and when i woke up shes still not back yet. im so imaginative that i found myself very stupid.. i imagined that she got car accident or something. i seriously seriously seriously thought im goin to lose a bestfriend. but she came back happily as if nothing happened . she spent about 45 min or something just to choose a book and chocolate ? >:/
you better feel grateful that u have a friend so patient like me. if not i guarantee you will be slapped .
we went home at 8pm. really tired and smelly. dad forced me to throw away my fav sch shoe cos its smelly and torn until . really cannot make it. its served me for about 3 years i think. very sad.
monday midyear exam. i want to do well. i have to do well. all for him.
love this cat, the cat that ate black soysauce (:

thanks meifen jiemin for the donuts. really love it so much (:

today tuition from 4 to 8. damn tired but knowing i was goin to meet him gave me energy.

my fav. thanks dear. MUACKMUACK.
hahas.

HAPPY WORLD BESTFRIEND'S DAY (:
i love you my bestfriends .
and also those who were once my bestfriends. ya loved too.

i guess no sleep for me tonight. coursework need to hand in tmr ): went for jogathon for the sake of minli. never regretted going cos minli got 12th and ive got to see my bestfriend went up to stage to take prize. great job minli, im proud of you !

saturday my ss day, ruined by minli. cos we went lots of places till night. before that i went running. cos really stress like shit. but stay strong sock !
sunday and today, my maths day, ruined by someone else.
i guess i have to learn more from minli.. IM SELFISH . understand?
hais. feeling super duper down this few days. i looked sad today i know. but stay strong sock !
so if you noticed that i keep very silence in school, pls keep a distance away from me . i need some break. dun ask why. please.

sunday met up with tere. went vivo ate super dog and watch mr bean's hoilday. very very stupid show..

thank you for your presistence dear.
there is a distance between us. there's nothing we can do. if only i could be number one.
but i truly believe. love is still there.
but stay strong sock!
went running just now. i guess its the only way to vent my anger, my frustration, my stress, my pain and everything. im very tired, physically and mentally tired.
pushing myself everyday like this, really doesnt help at all.
zero faith in myself.
will i make it to poly?
will i let my dad down?
and im broke . empty wallet because my pocket money goes into jogathon card and ST day (sock tere day which means every sunday) , empty stomach . . 'im hungry' became my daily routine. the first thing i will say when i step into my house. but stay strong sock !

treat yourself nicely sock. have faith . SMILE because this is life.

looking back to those days. not only smile, i laugh. hahaha.

us ! two years ago. so much changes


and look at my dad, his soo cute here.


how can i not laugh.
life is still beautiful.
love is alway beautiful. our 25 MONTHS today .
how fast (: ikea with girlfriend (:




ya right. dont even need a boyfriend to be happy. WEISUM CHALET YTD. 6april
today jus reached home, bathed and realised couldnt slp so im here (:
so ytd noon went tampines mall brought present for weisum. evening reached weisum there took photos (: and i realised ive been wearing the same clothes in the pictures ive uploaded the pass two entries. its because its new and i guess im in love with green, if i dun wear it now it will expand expand and expand cos . . . . argh forget it. nvm. anyway
she is wei sum.


auntie huiling, my girlfriend jiemin, that pervert gil in purple. yueting. keep saying those yellow jokes !


my jie mei wei jie (:




we went pasir ris park. weird things happened there with kelvin and huiling. anyway. walked back to chalet and had dinner. meifen and kong ba bao (wilfred) arrived and we sat down chitchat.


jie min yueting huiling went home. left me meifen kongbabao weijie xinwei kelvin jianming stayed there till today early morning. we went pasirris park play zong ji mi ma. the one who said the number lick two scoops of icecream. its gross.
look at kong ba bao

and her. hahas.

we shared jokes too(: super lame jokes.
talked about the dirty things we did in primary school. hahs. rem last time we play raping game at play ground den we strip huiling. and in the new toilet we climbed up to take a look at the cubical beside. den rem i saw huiling sitting on the bowl with her panties . meifen and huiling came my house and acted as if they were making love, throwing pe shirts out from the blanket. hahas. and p5 heard from someone said jianming liked me, and he was sitting beside me i totally ignored him like shit. how childish. really im treating him worst than shit. hahs. and the cup noodles at blk 804 beside our school. how great primary school life was :D
then today we went our to take bus at early 6 am. went khatib ate jianming's mother porridge. hahas. then walked home with jianming (:
had great day.

but feeling down the whole day and night. because . although some thing are common in society right now, more and more friends are doing it, its becoming a trend i think , but i dunno why. i guess it you mean something to me girl.

oh ya. nearly forgot bout something.

something special from someone special, minli !

and i dunno why i like this pic very much. with johnny. its blur. din get this photo from him.

a first guy friend wrote a very true 'friends forever' in a letter. damn happy. keep in my wallet all the time and sometimes read and smile. his so much like weijie. hahas.
alright. enough.
sleepless, and finally im tired now.
thought through wat meifen said at the bus.
tears stung my eyes right now.
because someone i love , ya not there feeling down this few days ): studies making me sick. only left a few more months to o level. a few more weeks to chinese and midyr exam. . and one more day to weisum CHALET ! yiippieee ! what happened to the school.. keep changing of timetable. useless interaction time every morning. teachers absent. STUPID homeroom system. tell me what is this stupid thing goin on.

tuesday had tuition at night. went sean's parents work place at sembawang. that place so cool. tere went his camp. no more phone talk till sunday.
wednesday after sch met jiemin. . . reach home study study study. the night seems long, without the three words from you. hais .
today . really miss tere loads. have been waiting and waiting for his msg. guess he is really busy right now.
feel stress again. i hope i can give up on everything.. but life is like that right. its not easy at all. thats what i have to go thru in secondary sch . and what we have to go thru to see forever in this relationship.. every step is so tough. we get tossed and struggle from time to time. but this is life. accept it or rot .
talk to my bestfriend. how right that you show me what 'i will always be there for you no matter what' really means.
turk you are always there for me. i wun forget what you have done. sometimes i seriously feel guilty. this few years you are like my guardian angel. whenever i feel sad you will find ways to make me smile instead of saying discouraging words. whenever you hear bad news from the crazies you nv ever failed to care. i can feel it, you have done so much tat if i need to mention the list goes on and on and on. but im sorry for making you wait all the time. sorry i want u to be my bestbestbest friend forever. sorry i love you as my bestbestbest friend not lover. it has been a long long time. if its meant to be, so be it.
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